I’m feeling like there is just something in my throat I can’t swollow

My hearts dropped.
My body feels weak.
It’s just the initial panic.
I’ll be okay.
I’ve got you behind me.
Everyone really helps.
Leaving you hurts.
but, I know looking forward to seeing you again will get me through.
i won’t forget about you
Please, never forget about me.


((last post))

It’s so crazy how one minute I’m telling myself “don’t get attached” “just think of it as JUST SEX”
Im attached.
It’s not just sex.

This is so much more than that.
You make me feel so amazing.

I’m so glad I met you.
Top 5 things I'm hating about leaving
  • 1: Leaving my family.
  • 2: The dog I've had for over 10 years is dying. He will be gone the next time I come home.
  • 3: Fear of disappointment.
  • 4: Possibility of losing something that I could see blossom into something amazing.
  • 5: I always push myself to hard but lately I've been too easy on myself. I need to find a balance of how much to push myself while I'm there.
  • End: I'm done venting(: